January 2012
To spend my christmas money or keep saving it for...
I might not even get to go to Hawaii if I’m in school when my family goes so yeah…..
December 2011
Spending my new years on the computer with my...
Yeah mom wants me gone and since she doesn’t want me to drive anywhere they’re the only option.
He's either drunk or high.
I think this is real. I wonder if Sarah will post anything about it hmmmm…..
slamjars:
GUYS THIS IS THE OPPORTUNITY OF A LIFETIME DONT FUCK IT UP BY SENDING HIM ASKS ABOUT RYDEN/RYAN/BAGELS/STAGEGAY/RYDEN/RYDEN/RYDEN/RYAN ROSS PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE
So far I got....
Steve Jobs Book
Hello Kitty Shirt
$10
$100
$125
2 $15 itunes card
Camcorder
Boot slippers
Nice top
Matilda
Picture frames
Handmade painting of dia de los muertes Owl :D
fun. fact!
My mom’s boss looks like Nate Ruess :D
This Christmas is bittersweet...But I'll make the...
So on the 27th my mom has to go into surgery for an angiogram because they found a blockage in the tip of her heart. If they see more than one blockage and other stuff the doctor will do a angioplasty(?) and put a mesh stint. This month and year need to go!
Ida Stephens & Girls
Was the patrons sponsor name for my brother Chris when he was in JU :’)
Girls are Pinky and Grandma Pat :)
Memories#4
My first trip to Hawaii with grandma, Chris, and aunt Ricci :’)
Memories #3
Having hula practice at grandma’s house :)
Memories #2
Going out to a late dinner at a sit down restaurant usually cocos after a hula show or Chris’s plays. Grandma would always get a coffee and breakfast for dinner no matter what :)
#the little things
Memories #1
I miss when my brother Chris and I were younger on the way to hula shows he would play ukulele or his backpacker guitar and we would all sing hawaiian songs with pinky & grandma Stephens.
I hate crying!
I’m tired of it!
Another I'm not gonna lie...
I haven’t slept all night because I can’t stop thinking and silently crying. I’m super tired but I feel like I don’t deserve to sleep as well. I don’t know why, this is the first time for that. I didn’t do it when Salan died so yeah. I’ll end up crashing and napping at some point today :/
Not gonna lie I wish I had a boyfriend to cuddle...
This sucks so much…..
My chest hurts
Gotta be my broken heart :(
I’m tired too.
“The sadness will last forever.”
– Vincent van Gogh (via mizenscen)
I don’t want it to!
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peasforeveryone replied to your post: She’s gone D’:
I’m so sorry Katie. She sounds like a great women.
Thanks Jimena!
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amyradical replied to your post: She’s gone D’:
I’m so sorry for your loss, I can tell you loved her very much and she was really important to you. Sometimes life just sucks, I hope you can get through all the pain alright though.
Thanks Amy I think I will just gonna take a while since she won’t be here for the holidays.
She's gone D':
I can’t do anything but cry. I’m happy she’s not in pain anymore but it still hurts that she’s gone. She lived one hell of a great 87 years on this earth and I’m glad she got to spend 18 of it with me.
Ida Stephens
6/29/1924 - 12/19/2011
Grandma’s not responding to anything she’s in a coma basically. So she’ll be gone either tonight or tomorrow possibly. Fuck man I didn’t want her to go til after Christmas!!!!
Entertain me with invasive questions.
1. What's your middle name?
2. What are you listening to right now?
3. What was the last thing you ate?
4. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
5. Do you drink?
6. Do you smoke?
7. What is the first thing you noticed in someone?
8. What is your hair color?
9. What is your eye color?
10. Do you wear contacts/glasses?
11. Dogs or cats?
12. What's your favorite animal?
13. What's your favorite television show?
14. What's your favorite movie?
15. What's your favorite band/singer?
16. How old are you?
17. Do you have a crush on anyone?
18. What's your sexual orientation?
19. What's your favorite color?
20. What was your most embarrassing moment?
21. Do you ever wish you were someone else?
22. What were you like when you were a kid?
23. What would your dream house be like?
24. What last made you laugh?
25. What is your favorite word?
26. What is your least favorite word?
27. What turns you on?
28. What turns you off?
29. What is your star sign?
30. What are your favorite books?
31. Do you have any siblings?
32. Do you like to dance?
33. What is your definition of cheating?
34. Have you ever cheated on someone?
35. Do you regret anything?
36. Do you have any phobias?
37. Ever broken any bones?
38. Ever come close to death?
39. What is your religion, if any?
40. Have you ever been to a psychiatrist/therapist?
41. Are looks important in a relationship?
42. Are you more like your mom or your dad?
43. What is your favorite season?
44. Do you have any tattoos?
45. Do you have any piercings?
46. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?
47. Have you ever had a crush on a fictional character?
48. Who is your celebrity crush?
49. Are you a virgin?
50. Do you get jealous easily?
51. What is your favorite type of food?
52. Do you ever want to get married?
53. Who was your first kiss with?
54. Have you ever been cheated on?
55. What is your idea of the perfect date?
56. Are you an introvert or an extrovert?
57. Do you believe in aliens or life on other planets?
58. What talent do you wish you'd been born with?
59. What is your saddest memory?
60. Do you believe in love at first sight?
61. Do you believe in soul mates?
62. Have you ever dyed your hair?
63. Has someone ever spread a nasty rumor about you?
64. Would you go against your moral code for money?
65. What are three things most people don't know about you?
66. Who are you jealous of?
67. Do you sleep with a stuffed toy?
68. How long was your longest relationship?
69. Is the glass half empty or half full?
70. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you?
71. Who is your most loyal friend?
72. Are you in a relationship?
73. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her?
74. Are you a bad person?
75. Are you a lover or a fighter?
76. What did you do on your last birthday?
77. What is your favorite quote and why?
78. If your best friend died, what would you do?
79. If you had to go back in time and change one thing, what would it be?
80. If you only had 24 hours to live, what would you do?
81. What is the strangest dream you've ever had?
82. Are you happier single or in a relationship?
83. Who were you in a past life?
84. What is your happiest childhood memory?
85. Have you ever experienced unrequited love?
86. Have you ever had an imaginary friend?
87. If you were the president, what would you do?
88. What is your ideal career?
89. What is your political affiliation?
90. Are you conservative or liberal?
91. Is the male or female body closest to perfection?
92. Do you like kissing in public?
93. If you could change one thing in the world, what would you change?
94. Where would you like to live?
95. Where would you go on your dream vacation?
96. Describe yourself in one word.
97. Describe yourself in one sentence.
98. Where do you see yourself in five years?
99. What is your greatest accomplishment?
100. What is the meaning of life?
I'm done!
She’s drunk off her mind passed out. She is sick and goes to drink. I can’t believe she’s doing this I need her to be sober for me while I’m going through all this with grandma stephens. She is the first family member that I’m close with getting ready to die and even though I accept it because she won’t be in pain anymore I know I won’t be able to handle...
Grandma has a week maybe 2 left:'(
Found out tonight while driving to the hospital for my mom. Who is by the way ok just staying over night for observation. Tonight has sucked goodnight…..
Did you know grandma Stephens favorite trip to...
It’s her favorite because she was so happy to see me so involved in everything with awe and so happy :’)
Because grandma S is very ill and might not make it before Christmas grandma Pat is holding off to buy her a Christmas gift. She was sad while we were at target tonight getting stuff :(
My brain won’t turn off and I start crying at random times. Losing someone you love sucks hard :(
Being depressed sucks!
Especially during Christmas time :|
:'(
jibbajabbaa:
My great grandma Ida Stephens who all us kids call grandma S or Stephens fell down on November 8th braking her hip. She had surgery November 9th at 7:30 am and came out of it ok. Within the following weeks she healed but was in pain and weak. As of today she is on Hospice and on Fentanyl which is a higher pain medication than morphine. She isn’t eating, losing weight...
Grandma Pat went and Just got back said grandma S is in her la la land state of mind well when she left. And tonight hospice is gonna give her fentanyl which is stronger than morphine. I really hope she doesn’t go before or on christmas I’ll be a complete mess. I will even if she goes after but I’ll be worse during Christmas festivities at my brothers…..Fuck I’m...
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Well grandma Stephens is on hospice. Later on this afternoon or tomorrow morning they’ll come in and give her their strong morphine for her pain…That means she doesn’t have much longer. I just want her to wait until aunt Sandi comes out on the 1st then she can go peacefully I hope. This last year has been hard man!
So I just took a final!
I feel good about it but I may have flunked it…Oh well I have a A- B so altogether it may go down to a C as long as I pass I’ll be happy.
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Some people make me sick!
They are cowards if they couldn’t even tell her those nasty things off anon. It’s like the whole if you can’t say it in person then don’t say it at all. Hagen I am so sorry this particular anon has chosen you to beat down tonight. They must be jealous of your relationship with Ryan and feel threaten to have to say all that. Just know you have me and many other tumblr...
